Please hear my Heart July 11, 2020 was not my intentions to hurt any one single person that day or any day. But regardless who we think are our lives have consisted of many different areas / lives to get each of us to where we are today. From the time we were born to today we were many things as we grew up depending on each of our cultures.

As we got older some wanted to be Firemen, Police, Cowboys, Basketball or Football Players, Doctors & Lawyers. And again, older again many wanted to go to College some just Community Colleges, again our differences separate us.

Then as young Adults some did start filling those dreams of College, some did go into the Military, some went to work and others were still dreaming of major careers.

Me at an early age I rebelled ran away from home, put in a Military school, kicked out of Military school. I went to E.M. Holt Elementary School in Southern Alamance completed 8 years. Looked forward to attending Southern High School for 8 Years. This was in 1968 my first year at Southern would have been in 1969.

A whole lot of the Word “Southern” just happened there. Now lets just look at my eight years for a second. I was taught about The War Between the States or as some call it, “The Civil War”. Being a Southern Boy, it was a part of our Heritage, not just mine bit all of us growing up in that school. The games we played at home and school at one time or another reflected to our Southern Past.

Then the New School Year came around1969 and a new Word “Segregation”. Suddenly, the School Southern High I had waited and dreamed of going to for 8 years was gone, no longer in sight. I now was going to be Bussed across town to a School I had never heard of Called Graham High.

I was raised in a Fairly Raciest family where most believed that there were sides for people and if each stayed on theirs everyone would be good. Of course, currently in history that was a general thought pattern here in Burlington, NC.

So, I started at Graham High and rode the school bus a mixed-race bus and never experienced any problems that I can remember. Personally, I do not even remember having any conversation that were racial. What this change did do for me was to put me into a different class of children that I was not accustom to. For the first time in my life I got the opportunity to smoke Pot, to try LSD.

School started taking a Back-Seat to the Parking Lot and smoking Pot. Skipping School to ride around Union Ridge and Take a Trip on some Acid. The first time I quit was in Mss. Badenhoop’s English Class. She asks me as question I should been able to answer and my answer was, I quit closed my Books and walked out. I quit again the second year abut I really do not remember where and when.

I married my First wife at 18 and realized the world was Cruller than I was when I was Fired at the Anderson Little Store at the Mall. David Jones their Taylor taught me to sew there. I did really good there until one of the 2 doors in the Stock room opened because of a Pressure of me closing the door I was going out of causing it to open. So, when they turned on the Alarm it went off. I was accused of leaving it open and fired. It was not me and who would buy Hot Nice New Men’s Clothing from a man with Hair down to his shoulders?

I joined the Army I 1973 served till 1979 that’s 6 years 2 months 13 days of Honorable service. I spent 2 Years in Germany in Artillery and did live fire in the Mediterranean on the Island of Create. PCS to Indiana took Postal School and Served at US Army Ft Campbell Ky for 4 years. 2 years in the Post office then Transferred out to HHSC DISCOM to serve in the office as 71L20 Human Relations Equal Opportunity which is 00U / MOS. ETS in 1979.

Married to young had a Rocky road today we both agreed on that point and would not listen to Mature adults. Had to do it Our Way. We were Married 10 Years but not together all of that time. I have told her and apologized because its hard living with me.

Came back home to Burlington bought a Harley around 1980 from The Harley Shop on Park Ave a 1979 Sportster. Now this was start of a Brand-new Lifestyle. When I started this Post, I spoke of many different areas of our lives we would build on, can you see this yet? I met a Fellow named DQ Roberts who a little later I will mention him again.

I met a lot of Bikers and liked what I saw, I liked the Lifestyle. There was a Freedom to it that appealed to me. In this freedom it went back to elementary school to my Southern Roots once again. I was rebuilding New Southern Confederate Friendships after around 12 years and it felt good. See it never left, just as when you grew up yours never left it was always there.

Then around 1980 mom died and I thought God let her Die, so I got mad at God then in 1984 Dad got sick and Died and again I got Mad at God. See God does not care if we get mad at Him, because he knows the end Results. He knows if we are ever going to receive His Jon Jesus and When. He is just Patiently waiting.

Dad had Lots of $money$, so he left it to me to waste and have a good time as so many thought parents did. It took about a year to go through that wad, had lots of Friends during that time, only during that time$.

Out of that Dad had pills I knew nothing about and some of the girls I had over to the house after his death and burial they did and after a while they talked me into trying a Shot. Well it was ok, but it got better when I mixed it with Cocaine, that was called a Speedball. Eventually I fell off into Crack Cocaine and smoking it seemed easier to get than the powder.

In 1990 I met Brenda Jeffries at the Downtown Sports Bar, A Black- Bar ran by Sonny & Dianne Shipman. Over the period of 3 years we dated and moved in together and Married in December 25th, 1993. Brenda a Black /Occaneechi Indian and most precious Bride. This year 2020 we have been Married 27 years. Been together 30 years.

Brenda & I from 1993 till 2003 were turbulent years for us from some of my Drug & Alcohol use. It took Jesus the Christ to make changes. A fellow I spoke of back a few paragraphs named DQ Roberts, helped to make lane changes in my life. We were Brothers back in the day, thick as thieves, but we were not. Beth Roberts his Bride Ask Jesus for his life Jesus gave her Him Jesus cleaned him up and They-Together Served Jesus in a Biker ministry.

DQ Roberts was a major Vessel in leading me to Jesus the Christ. He and Beth encouraged me a regularly along with a handful from First Christian Church in Kernersville, NC. Brian Mowers was another that deserves a mention.

From December 2003 to today Brenda & I served Jesus with a Passion. I have picture books and a Computer with Hundreds maybe thousands of ministry Pictures of places where we have served People. See we served People, we have never Color, we have never served Race.

That’s why I am writing this to remind everyone that just because you grow up one way who you were is still in you. That is not something that ever leaves you. I remember my Parents teaching me things from the Bible on one hand and on the other I remember them teaching me that God separated the Races for a reason.

But see Mom & Dad didn’t teach me about, just that they should be separated. Genesis 11:1-9, Now the whole world had one language and a common speech. As people moved eastward,[a] they found a plain in Shinar[b] and settled there.

They said to each other, “Come, let’s make bricks and bake them thoroughly.” They used brick instead of stone, and tar for mortar. Then they said, “Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves; otherwise we will be scattered over the face of the whole earth.”

But the Lord came down to see the city and the tower the people were building. The Lord said, “If as one people speaking the same language, they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them. Come, let us go down and confuse their language so they will not understand each other.”

So the Lord scattered them from there over all the earth, and they stopped building the city. That is why it was called Babel[c]—because there the Lord confused the language of the whole world. From there the Lord scattered them over the face of the whole earth.

Here is another addition, I was invited to family functions (Aunts & Uncles) like Christmas Parties but my Fiancé was not invited. Now this was Before I knew Jesus and I let all but one Die and today I still suffer for that. But I was Blessed to be able to be able to my last Aunts Funeral. See hearts do change.

So the BLM Protest hit something Deep inside me that has not come out in some time. See the Statue, the Flags they are still a Part of who I am regardless to my Bride and me. She just like you have hidden past that will / might come out from time to time and you might not mean to hurt anyone just stand in support.

I still Support the United Stated of America and what it Stands for. I believe in the Western Christian Values that has given America the freedoms that today allows these Protesters to Protest Today. If they were in a Socialist / Communist country they would have been beaten and all arrested, just look hat Hong Kong.

To each and everyone that Thought I was there as a to hurt the Black Community that was the Farthest thing from my mind. One must understand Love, the Love of Jesus the Christ. It is not something one can turn on and off like a water spicket. Jesus’ Love is unconditional, and His Love works through our Hearts to all men & women, mankind. But that again does not mean we are not allowed our own thoughts and opinions and allowed to express them.

Here I do need to Apologize for the Food-Lion Video that I took. I did say things during that Video, that I am regretful of. So to make amends of it I have erased it from my Page. We do know sometimes on FB others share post so if you see that video just remember I erased it from my page and my Bride watched me.

I hope I have made some of a difference here today hoping to help people understand I am not the only one in the world who grew up with feelings of past things that will surface or has surfaced as Adults. These things they also play a part min your daily lives and the lives of others sometimes even when you don’t mean for it to.

Try and be real about this as I am today. And most of all keep Jesus out Front…..Bones in CHRIST…!!!!!